11/24/2022: Navigating the holidays

As we approach the holiday's I want to share something/ or a few things. For me it's been a super ROUGH journey. Let's be so real. Trying to find joy in grief is hard. To ask yourself if you're allowed to even feel joy, or be happy. Trying to plan how to celebrate her heavenly holidays here. Something I never thought I would have to do, but it is my reality. I'm forever grateful to have carried the biggest blessing and my greatest accomplishment right into eternity, but it does not make it easier what so ever.

There is still somethings to be grateful for, and to be joyus about. I am so incredibly blessed to have a husband who is hands down the best man a wife could have. A partner who is always supportive, and will hold me even when neither of you have it together. A man who loves his daughter so deeply, he really is the best girl dad ever!

Parents (from both side) who have prayed so boldy and so confidently for us. Parents who wrap us in love, and are there for us in need. Who just show up, and say nothing but sit and be there.

To have sisters who made so so so so many of my dreams come true, most sisters don't envision their niece to go right to heaven, but theirs did. They each made so many of my mom dreams happen! To have my sisters to be there for us, and continue to be is such a blessing, to have everyone walk this journey was a huge blessing!

I had the best OB, and will have the best OB (one day again). He was hands down the best, I will be so grateful to him, and his support the whole time was amazing. I had the absolute BEST BEST BEST OB nurse who also made all my mommy dreams happen!! She truly is the best person to have rooting for you when you are going to have your baby. In this season there are still so many blessings that God perfectly orchestrated for us! There are somethings to be grateful for. However it can be so hard.

I want to remind ALL of you walking into this season of the holidays. It's not a beautiful time, or the most wonderful time of year for so many people. If we can remember to be gracious and so kind to one an other. Be gentle with your conversations. Don't ask a young couple when they're starting a family. We don't know if anyone out there is experiencing a loss, or infertility.

We TRULY don't know ANYTHING. Any battle we cannot see, or we don't hear because it's not for us to know. With this in mind we are all in so many different seasons so let's filter what we say before we do hurt someone, and that may not be our intention. Walk with grace, and kindness especially in your conversations with one another.